Who, In their right mind would resign from their work knowing that Christmas is just around the corner?
Well, It’s me. Yes, I know. I am probably nuts and stupid to resign from my job and be a “semi-bum” when Christmas is just around the corner. You won’t even finish reading my entry cause I’m that stupid guy who resigned from work.
I did resign from my work. It has been 2 months since I received another pay check. I was really hoping that something or someone will give me another job, but, no luck. After , more than 30 applications online, not to mention the walk-in things, I’m still home, in front of my laptop, blogging.
Well, you can’t blame me for leaving my previous company. I don’t have anything bad to say to my previous employer but definitely something is missing while I was working.
Happiness.
Yes, this may sound a cliché for most of you. But then deep deeper, are you really happy with your work right now? Or are you just plain happy because of the salary you are getting?
Having no work today is really gutsy, with the economic turmoil that we are experiencing. It not that I am not in tune with the people around me on my previous work, I miss them to say the least. But then again, I am not happy anymore. I need to be alone again, to rekindle my lost happiness and bring out the fire within me to be able to function properly again.
So, until then, until my next work comes, remember, stay happy.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
CYBER - 2
I got out of bed earlier than expected. Cooked breakfast, mowed the lawn, took out the trash. I was basically doing what I ought not to do. My mom entered the kitchen surprised to see me with a big grin and breakfast on the table.
“Good morning mom, have some coffee.” I said.
My mom was hesitant sitting and was really surprised to see me.
“Why?” she asked me.
“Nothing. I thought I’d be a good help. Since summer is here and nothing to do, you know”
“Okay”
I was waiting for the right time to ask mom if I could go to the Zimmerman’s party. I have planned the whole thing in my head. I will do all the chores all day and wait until my mom asked me what I want in return.
I was getting irritated doing the chores for 5 whole days. My body is aching for some rest, have sores all over my hands. And still, my mom is not getting the message. I thought, this will be it, I have to tell her that I want to go to the Zimmerman’s party. I had to be there. I had to be there for Courtney.
My mom walked into the kitchen. She saw me drinking a glass of lemonade from all the days work. This will be my chance, my chance to be with Courtney.
Suddenly,
“Son, do you have anything to do this weekend?” my mom asked me.
“None, why?” I replied.
“Well, the Zimmerman called and they have a pool party and was asking if you will come. That will be tomorrow. 6 pm.”
Oh My GOD!!!
“Can I go?”
“Well, you have been good this week. And I though you need a break. So I told the Zimmerman to put your name on the guest list. And, uhm, bought you some trunks. You don’t want to swim wearing your boxers right?”
“Gee, thanks mom. Thank you very much”
“Anything for my good son. Well, you better rest, because tomorrow you will have a great day. Enjoy the party.”
I can’t freakin’ believe it. Courtney, here I come.
Can’t sleep. I was thinking of how to go thru the party tomorrow. The trunks looks nice but then there was Courtney. The girl of my dreams, the girl everyone wants to go out with. Yeah. Courtney.
Woke up and checked my things I will bring on the party. Trunks. Checked. Undies. Checked. Shirt. Checked. Usual stuff. Checked. Mints. Checked. Hmm, seems I’m eady to go to the Zimmerman’s party.
Phoned mike and asked him to drop by our house and we will go together to the party.
We arrived a bit early for the party, But the place was already filled. The band was already setting up. The pool is clean. The food was already being served. And a lot of people was going into the place.
Mike and I changed to our so called trunks because everyone was wearing them. The girls wearing their bikinis and we ought to give them credit. We were happily eating and chatting away when I told Mike what happened last week.
“Mike, I need to tell you something, but promise me this will be our secret.”
“What about it?”
“It is about Courtney.”
“What about her?”
“She asked me to come here and meet her tonight. I can’t believe it but here I am, about to see her tonight.”
“Wait a minute, Courtney? Cmon, you must be kidding.”
“Yeah, Courtney, the girl of my dreams.”
“Before you go and tell her everything, I need to tell you something buddy”
Mike was busy telling me something, suddenly, there she is. With her one piece swim wear that really looked nice at her. Man, I wish I was those swim wear.
“Whoah! Hold your horses mikey boy. I will go and talk to Courtney and be the man.”
“Wait wait wait. Buddy, listen to me first”
“Save it later buddy. She wants to see me today.”
Mike was frantically telling me not to go and see Courtney. Well, I though he is just jealous with me.
I walked towards Courtney with a bag full of confidence. Striding like a stallion horse, walking like an alpha lion male ready to conquer her princess, a knight in shining armor ready to kill anyone who will harm his princess.
“Hi Courtney”
“Who the hell are you?” Courtney replied, seemed a bit surprised.
“John. You told me to meet you here. Remember? Oh, I got it, you can’t be seen hanging out with a not so hot guy like me eh?. Okay I’ll play it cool.”
“What the hell are you saying?”
“The conversation that we had, on the internet. You wanted to see me, to see me here on the party?”
Now, people are piling up. Making me and Courtney anxious.
“Didn’t you heard peabrain? My account was hacked. Almost everyone on the entire school had that email. Where are you from? Get out of my sight before I punch you on your nuts.”
Laughter burst on the pool side. I felt like peeing on my new trunks. My heart was broken into a million pieces. What the heck, its summer. You are supposed to be heart broken. Damn, I felt so stupid. I quietly went inside and changed to my clothes. I was about to leave the party when I saw Mike on the door frantically holding his laughter.
“Hey brave knight. You should have listened to me first. Well charge it to experience. At least you will be the highlight of the summer.”
“Shut up. We’ll I can’t blame you. You really are a true friend. Not so true minutes ago.”
“Where are you going? The night is young, the party is wild. Don’t tell me you’re leaving?! C’mon buddy.”
“I have to go home. I have chores to do tomorrow morning. Enjoy the party”
I left the party with a broken heart and a broken ego. How stupid of me to think about Courtney having a crush on me, to even think that she email me and wants to see me on the party. What a waste of time. Tomorrow morning might be different, they will not remember what happened. Everything will be back to normal… I hope….
Woke up early the next morning. I was surprised to see my mom, almost finished with the chores. So I went back to my room and was planning to dose off again. I caught a glimpse of my computer. I sat down to check my mails and read online stuff from the internet.
To my dismay, my inbox is full of messages and photos of me and Courtney at the Zimmerman’s party. What a major bummer. Everything from peabrain to stupid geek to names you cannot imagine. I was about to delete all of the contents on my inbox folder when an email caught my eye. It was an email from Yvonne.
SENDER: Yvonne
SUBJECT: Sorry
BODY:
Hey, I saw what happened yesterday. I felt sorry for you. I just thought of sending you an email to cheer you up.
Regards.
Yeah, thanks a lot. It really cheered me up. I replied.
Another email alert. It was Yvonne again. I grumpily clicked on the mouse. Didn’t you had enough of me yesterday, I was about to reply that to her email. I was taken aback.
BODY:
You were brave speaking to Courtney yesterday. I sure want someone like you. Well, see you soon.
Well, well well. What do we have here. Hmmmm….. I would like to have someone like you also. I replied.
I guess summer won’t be boring after all.
“Good morning mom, have some coffee.” I said.
My mom was hesitant sitting and was really surprised to see me.
“Why?” she asked me.
“Nothing. I thought I’d be a good help. Since summer is here and nothing to do, you know”
“Okay”
I was waiting for the right time to ask mom if I could go to the Zimmerman’s party. I have planned the whole thing in my head. I will do all the chores all day and wait until my mom asked me what I want in return.
I was getting irritated doing the chores for 5 whole days. My body is aching for some rest, have sores all over my hands. And still, my mom is not getting the message. I thought, this will be it, I have to tell her that I want to go to the Zimmerman’s party. I had to be there. I had to be there for Courtney.
My mom walked into the kitchen. She saw me drinking a glass of lemonade from all the days work. This will be my chance, my chance to be with Courtney.
Suddenly,
“Son, do you have anything to do this weekend?” my mom asked me.
“None, why?” I replied.
“Well, the Zimmerman called and they have a pool party and was asking if you will come. That will be tomorrow. 6 pm.”
Oh My GOD!!!
“Can I go?”
“Well, you have been good this week. And I though you need a break. So I told the Zimmerman to put your name on the guest list. And, uhm, bought you some trunks. You don’t want to swim wearing your boxers right?”
“Gee, thanks mom. Thank you very much”
“Anything for my good son. Well, you better rest, because tomorrow you will have a great day. Enjoy the party.”
I can’t freakin’ believe it. Courtney, here I come.
Can’t sleep. I was thinking of how to go thru the party tomorrow. The trunks looks nice but then there was Courtney. The girl of my dreams, the girl everyone wants to go out with. Yeah. Courtney.
Woke up and checked my things I will bring on the party. Trunks. Checked. Undies. Checked. Shirt. Checked. Usual stuff. Checked. Mints. Checked. Hmm, seems I’m eady to go to the Zimmerman’s party.
Phoned mike and asked him to drop by our house and we will go together to the party.
We arrived a bit early for the party, But the place was already filled. The band was already setting up. The pool is clean. The food was already being served. And a lot of people was going into the place.
Mike and I changed to our so called trunks because everyone was wearing them. The girls wearing their bikinis and we ought to give them credit. We were happily eating and chatting away when I told Mike what happened last week.
“Mike, I need to tell you something, but promise me this will be our secret.”
“What about it?”
“It is about Courtney.”
“What about her?”
“She asked me to come here and meet her tonight. I can’t believe it but here I am, about to see her tonight.”
“Wait a minute, Courtney? Cmon, you must be kidding.”
“Yeah, Courtney, the girl of my dreams.”
“Before you go and tell her everything, I need to tell you something buddy”
Mike was busy telling me something, suddenly, there she is. With her one piece swim wear that really looked nice at her. Man, I wish I was those swim wear.
“Whoah! Hold your horses mikey boy. I will go and talk to Courtney and be the man.”
“Wait wait wait. Buddy, listen to me first”
“Save it later buddy. She wants to see me today.”
Mike was frantically telling me not to go and see Courtney. Well, I though he is just jealous with me.
I walked towards Courtney with a bag full of confidence. Striding like a stallion horse, walking like an alpha lion male ready to conquer her princess, a knight in shining armor ready to kill anyone who will harm his princess.
“Hi Courtney”
“Who the hell are you?” Courtney replied, seemed a bit surprised.
“John. You told me to meet you here. Remember? Oh, I got it, you can’t be seen hanging out with a not so hot guy like me eh?. Okay I’ll play it cool.”
“What the hell are you saying?”
“The conversation that we had, on the internet. You wanted to see me, to see me here on the party?”
Now, people are piling up. Making me and Courtney anxious.
“Didn’t you heard peabrain? My account was hacked. Almost everyone on the entire school had that email. Where are you from? Get out of my sight before I punch you on your nuts.”
Laughter burst on the pool side. I felt like peeing on my new trunks. My heart was broken into a million pieces. What the heck, its summer. You are supposed to be heart broken. Damn, I felt so stupid. I quietly went inside and changed to my clothes. I was about to leave the party when I saw Mike on the door frantically holding his laughter.
“Hey brave knight. You should have listened to me first. Well charge it to experience. At least you will be the highlight of the summer.”
“Shut up. We’ll I can’t blame you. You really are a true friend. Not so true minutes ago.”
“Where are you going? The night is young, the party is wild. Don’t tell me you’re leaving?! C’mon buddy.”
“I have to go home. I have chores to do tomorrow morning. Enjoy the party”
I left the party with a broken heart and a broken ego. How stupid of me to think about Courtney having a crush on me, to even think that she email me and wants to see me on the party. What a waste of time. Tomorrow morning might be different, they will not remember what happened. Everything will be back to normal… I hope….
Woke up early the next morning. I was surprised to see my mom, almost finished with the chores. So I went back to my room and was planning to dose off again. I caught a glimpse of my computer. I sat down to check my mails and read online stuff from the internet.
To my dismay, my inbox is full of messages and photos of me and Courtney at the Zimmerman’s party. What a major bummer. Everything from peabrain to stupid geek to names you cannot imagine. I was about to delete all of the contents on my inbox folder when an email caught my eye. It was an email from Yvonne.
SENDER: Yvonne
SUBJECT: Sorry
BODY:
Hey, I saw what happened yesterday. I felt sorry for you. I just thought of sending you an email to cheer you up.
Regards.
Yeah, thanks a lot. It really cheered me up. I replied.
Another email alert. It was Yvonne again. I grumpily clicked on the mouse. Didn’t you had enough of me yesterday, I was about to reply that to her email. I was taken aback.
BODY:
You were brave speaking to Courtney yesterday. I sure want someone like you. Well, see you soon.
Well, well well. What do we have here. Hmmmm….. I would like to have someone like you also. I replied.
I guess summer won’t be boring after all.
Friday, November 7, 2008
My Dear Cathy-by JHA
I.
As I looked at her face,
A tear fell from my eyes..
I can see her struggles,
I can see her pain..
Alas, I must help her..
I must let her escape,
from the trouble she’s having,
from the suffering she’s been.
II.
And so, I came near her,
Slowly let her out & destroyed her cover,
Not knowing I was turned out to be a killer.
Oh no, did I really saved her?
Or shortened her life instead?
Did I help her too soon?
To let her escape from her cocoon?
III.
“Kid, what have you done?”
Says, my teacher, when she saw Cathy’s gone..
“Didn’t you know,
that stage,she must undergo,
before she could fly & grow.
For in the end, the world will see,
A beautiful butterfly, she’ll supposed to be.
IV.
A little sermon but w/ lesson I got,
from Ms. Minchin, my teacher, who’e a bit fat. ;P
A guilt I felt for what I did,
Thought help from me is what she need.
Her death taught a valuable lesson for me,
For our everyday problems, a solution I see..
Have patience, my friend, it is the key.
Soon, everything will be okay, you’ll see..
Additional Stanza:
So don’t you ever lose hope, (filler)
God loves those who waits,so be happy..
As I looked at her face,
A tear fell from my eyes..
I can see her struggles,
I can see her pain..
Alas, I must help her..
I must let her escape,
from the trouble she’s having,
from the suffering she’s been.
II.
And so, I came near her,
Slowly let her out & destroyed her cover,
Not knowing I was turned out to be a killer.
Oh no, did I really saved her?
Or shortened her life instead?
Did I help her too soon?
To let her escape from her cocoon?
III.
“Kid, what have you done?”
Says, my teacher, when she saw Cathy’s gone..
“Didn’t you know,
that stage,she must undergo,
before she could fly & grow.
For in the end, the world will see,
A beautiful butterfly, she’ll supposed to be.
IV.
A little sermon but w/ lesson I got,
from Ms. Minchin, my teacher, who’e a bit fat. ;P
A guilt I felt for what I did,
Thought help from me is what she need.
Her death taught a valuable lesson for me,
For our everyday problems, a solution I see..
Have patience, my friend, it is the key.
Soon, everything will be okay, you’ll see..
Additional Stanza:
So don’t you ever lose hope, (filler)
God loves those who waits,so be happy..
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
CYBER - 1
The bell signaled the end of the year finally came to life. I was ecstatic to leave my desk and go out and be free… free… for at least a couple of months. Students busy chatting on the hall way as they tell each other plans on how to spend their free time. Talks about parties and travels frequented my ears, some are just happy not coming back to their tormenting teachers and bully classmates. All of us seem happy as we headed for the gates and to the horizon not knowing what lies ahead.
My life was shattered when I heard my mom tell me
“Son, you need to stay home this summer to learn chores”
I retaliated. “Mom, I can learn chores next summer. I have a lot to do. C’mon…Please..”
“Do you want to sleep on the porch? Whole summer?”
I know that my negotiating powers is no match for my mom. But, c’mon, this is summer vacation. I need to go out, meet new girls, have the adventure of my life; but then, my tyrant mom spoiled it.
I quickly went upstairs to phone my pal, Mike.
“Can I speak to Mike?”
“Who’s on the line please?”
Annie answered, his younger sister.
“It’s John”
Annie shouted. “Mikey!!!, it your boyfriend!!”
Mike hurriedly answered the phone and gave Annie the stare.
“Hey what’s up John? Hey, we have this cool party next week on the Zimmerman’s Pool. Girls from the University will be there. Remember we need to buy new pair of trunks”
“Mike, I have a bit of small problem..”
“Let me guess, you spent all your money buying your stupid RAM for your stupid computer, right?”
“Nope, I need to stay here to learn boring chores. I had a wild argument with my mom and she wins. Well, she always win. I want to go and check out the prospects, but, I’d better stay here rather being grounded for the rest of my life.”
“Wait wait wait..Don’t tell me you are not going? Try to sneak out. Just like old times”
“Nah. I better play safe. You go ahead. Look on the bright side, no competition, I’m not there. Right?”
“Whatever. Loser” Mike hang the phone.
I went back working on my crappy computer. Just had a ton of virus and I’m finished restoring it to its former glory. Not to mention buying enough RAM to run pretty smooth applications.
And so, I boot her up, made some adjustments and BOOM, I’m online. I am not a fan of chat. Nor do I have a facebook account. I’d rather read bunch of emails, visit tech sites and surf.
Going thru my e-mail, I noticed a strange one.
SUBJECT: Chat with me
SENDER: Courtney
BODY: Hi, have some time. Please meet me online.8:30 pm.
Blood rushed thru my head. This is Courtney, the hottest girl on the planet, the one I have a huge crush, the one I like since last summer.
Relax. Breath breath breath. Easy for someone to say. I quickly checked the time:8:25 pm. Good, I told myself. Plenty of time to make adjustments and brush up on romance 101.
8:30 pm. Still no sign of Courtney. Million things rushing to my brain. Maybe she has like 1,000 chat mates and I’m the 1,000th, Maybe this was a missent email, Maybe she is not the real Courtney, Maybe Mike is just playing games with me, Maybe..
Before my mind can think of another scenario, a screen pops out.
COURTNEY: Hi John.
I replied, of course.
COURTNEY: Hi John.
John: Hey Courtney, wazzup?
Wait,wazzup? Did I just say wazzup..Oh my. What will she think of me, An Idiot that don’t know how to spell words properly? Oh wait, this is the cyberspace, no wrong spelling here.
COURTNEY: I’m good. I’ve heard the Zimmerman’s Party. Fun, Free Food and new things to see. U comin?
Oh Shit!! That stupid party Mike is telling me. Oh man, I can’t blow this opportunity. The hottest girl on the planet asking me out. Whoooooooo!!
John: how bout u? r u comin?
COURTNEY: Sure. I won’t miss that party for anything else. Wud lyk 2 c u there.
John: sure.ill b there. Count on it
Count on it?!! C’mon. I’m need to learn some chores remember.C-H-O-R-E-S!!
COURTNEY: Gud. C u at the party. Gudnight.
John:sure.u 2,goodnight
Am I dreamin? The hottest girl on the planet asking me out. Before shutting down my pc, I’ve saved a copy of our conversation, that’s how I like Courtney. Whew!
I know tomorrow I need to make a sweet attack on my mom. I need to persuade her to let me attend the Zimmerman’s party. I need to be good tomorrow. I need to win, I need to win.
My life was shattered when I heard my mom tell me
“Son, you need to stay home this summer to learn chores”
I retaliated. “Mom, I can learn chores next summer. I have a lot to do. C’mon…Please..”
“Do you want to sleep on the porch? Whole summer?”
I know that my negotiating powers is no match for my mom. But, c’mon, this is summer vacation. I need to go out, meet new girls, have the adventure of my life; but then, my tyrant mom spoiled it.
I quickly went upstairs to phone my pal, Mike.
“Can I speak to Mike?”
“Who’s on the line please?”
Annie answered, his younger sister.
“It’s John”
Annie shouted. “Mikey!!!, it your boyfriend!!”
Mike hurriedly answered the phone and gave Annie the stare.
“Hey what’s up John? Hey, we have this cool party next week on the Zimmerman’s Pool. Girls from the University will be there. Remember we need to buy new pair of trunks”
“Mike, I have a bit of small problem..”
“Let me guess, you spent all your money buying your stupid RAM for your stupid computer, right?”
“Nope, I need to stay here to learn boring chores. I had a wild argument with my mom and she wins. Well, she always win. I want to go and check out the prospects, but, I’d better stay here rather being grounded for the rest of my life.”
“Wait wait wait..Don’t tell me you are not going? Try to sneak out. Just like old times”
“Nah. I better play safe. You go ahead. Look on the bright side, no competition, I’m not there. Right?”
“Whatever. Loser” Mike hang the phone.
I went back working on my crappy computer. Just had a ton of virus and I’m finished restoring it to its former glory. Not to mention buying enough RAM to run pretty smooth applications.
And so, I boot her up, made some adjustments and BOOM, I’m online. I am not a fan of chat. Nor do I have a facebook account. I’d rather read bunch of emails, visit tech sites and surf.
Going thru my e-mail, I noticed a strange one.
SUBJECT: Chat with me
SENDER: Courtney
BODY: Hi, have some time. Please meet me online.8:30 pm.
Blood rushed thru my head. This is Courtney, the hottest girl on the planet, the one I have a huge crush, the one I like since last summer.
Relax. Breath breath breath. Easy for someone to say. I quickly checked the time:8:25 pm. Good, I told myself. Plenty of time to make adjustments and brush up on romance 101.
8:30 pm. Still no sign of Courtney. Million things rushing to my brain. Maybe she has like 1,000 chat mates and I’m the 1,000th, Maybe this was a missent email, Maybe she is not the real Courtney, Maybe Mike is just playing games with me, Maybe..
Before my mind can think of another scenario, a screen pops out.
COURTNEY: Hi John.
I replied, of course.
COURTNEY: Hi John.
John: Hey Courtney, wazzup?
Wait,wazzup? Did I just say wazzup..Oh my. What will she think of me, An Idiot that don’t know how to spell words properly? Oh wait, this is the cyberspace, no wrong spelling here.
COURTNEY: I’m good. I’ve heard the Zimmerman’s Party. Fun, Free Food and new things to see. U comin?
Oh Shit!! That stupid party Mike is telling me. Oh man, I can’t blow this opportunity. The hottest girl on the planet asking me out. Whoooooooo!!
John: how bout u? r u comin?
COURTNEY: Sure. I won’t miss that party for anything else. Wud lyk 2 c u there.
John: sure.ill b there. Count on it
Count on it?!! C’mon. I’m need to learn some chores remember.C-H-O-R-E-S!!
COURTNEY: Gud. C u at the party. Gudnight.
John:sure.u 2,goodnight
Am I dreamin? The hottest girl on the planet asking me out. Before shutting down my pc, I’ve saved a copy of our conversation, that’s how I like Courtney. Whew!
I know tomorrow I need to make a sweet attack on my mom. I need to persuade her to let me attend the Zimmerman’s party. I need to be good tomorrow. I need to win, I need to win.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
pandb
When all else fails and no one would listen
When the darkness fails and there’s no light to guide
All you want to do is cry out loud
You ask the Mighty Father, if you’ve made the right decision
You’re confused, scared and worried..
Don’t worry much, cause you’re not alone
Your fears, are my fears
Your pain, my pain
Your tears, my tears
Your wound, my wound.
When you weep, I weep
When you’re hurt, I’m hurt
When you ask for HIS help, thrice as much, I ask HIM too..This I do, in the name of my LOVE for YOU..
So be happy…
Smile…
For your smile brings joy in my heart..in my whole being…
When the darkness fails and there’s no light to guide
All you want to do is cry out loud
You ask the Mighty Father, if you’ve made the right decision
You’re confused, scared and worried..
Don’t worry much, cause you’re not alone
Your fears, are my fears
Your pain, my pain
Your tears, my tears
Your wound, my wound.
When you weep, I weep
When you’re hurt, I’m hurt
When you ask for HIS help, thrice as much, I ask HIM too..This I do, in the name of my LOVE for YOU..
So be happy…
Smile…
For your smile brings joy in my heart..in my whole being…
adi by jha
Where are you, ADI?
Haven’t seen you lately?
Have you been hiding from a lady?
Or been magically disappeared by a fairy?
They say in the dark, we won’t find you..
Told by others making fun of you..
It’s not your fault you’re born a bit brown..
What matter’s w/ you, there’ll be no frown..
You bring laughter to other’s like a clown..
Thus for us, you deserve a crown.. (
But still, where are you, ADI?
We haven’t seen you lately..
ALAS! Didn’t noticed you’re HERE!!
In my HEART, you stood my DEAR…
Haven’t seen you lately?
Have you been hiding from a lady?
Or been magically disappeared by a fairy?
They say in the dark, we won’t find you..
Told by others making fun of you..
It’s not your fault you’re born a bit brown..
What matter’s w/ you, there’ll be no frown..
You bring laughter to other’s like a clown..
Thus for us, you deserve a crown.. (
But still, where are you, ADI?
We haven’t seen you lately..
ALAS! Didn’t noticed you’re HERE!!
In my HEART, you stood my DEAR…
Thank You
You lingered constantly in my mind for years. Hoping to see you, see me in the way I want you to see me. We have known each other for years, constantly hoping that you notice me. Unexpectedly, I fell for you. I fell, I fell. There is not a moment in my life that I’m not proud because we are together. The unending laughter that we’ve shared, the tears that we’ve shed. You have taught me how to love, unconditionally. I have loved you from the bottom of my heart. I really did. Thanks for teaching how to love, thanks for showing me my limits, my strengths, my weaknesses, the real me.
Thanks for the love you have given me, though you may have not shown it. I know you better than you think. Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to. Thanks for allowing me to love you and to care for you, deeply. Thank you for showing me that we are not meant to be, I know now what it feels to be rejected. Thank you for allowing me to love with out expectations.
There are many things left unsaid between us. Funny how our pride gets in the way most of the times, unsaid behavior, unsaid care. Thanks for not allowing me to say what I really feel for you, maybe it will just ruin things between us.
Thanks for listening to me when I said I’m letting you go. It’s painful, but someone has got to give in. Its hard to accept the fact that I’m falling for someone again. Its hard not to be scared, fearing of rejection looming into the horizon. But this is the way to be, I’m letting you go; You, having a life of your own.
I know you will be proud of me. I know you will smile when you read this, I just hope you find time to read this.
Thank you…. See you when I see you…
Thanks for the love you have given me, though you may have not shown it. I know you better than you think. Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to. Thanks for allowing me to love you and to care for you, deeply. Thank you for showing me that we are not meant to be, I know now what it feels to be rejected. Thank you for allowing me to love with out expectations.
There are many things left unsaid between us. Funny how our pride gets in the way most of the times, unsaid behavior, unsaid care. Thanks for not allowing me to say what I really feel for you, maybe it will just ruin things between us.
Thanks for listening to me when I said I’m letting you go. It’s painful, but someone has got to give in. Its hard to accept the fact that I’m falling for someone again. Its hard not to be scared, fearing of rejection looming into the horizon. But this is the way to be, I’m letting you go; You, having a life of your own.
I know you will be proud of me. I know you will smile when you read this, I just hope you find time to read this.
Thank you…. See you when I see you…
BUM
Being a bum is not a curse, sometimes it is our destiny (to say the least). Well, I am one (not really a bum cause I’m studying). To be a bum at this time of your life is quite courageous. You are in your mid-20S and you don’t have a job, this is the time when you should have started saving for your future, your family’s future. The time to grab every opportunity that comes your way to earn money. To plan your career, your whole life.
Being a bum has its own pros and cons. Let’s check first the pros:
1. You get to learn something you’ve been wanting to learn all your life.
Learn to play any musical instrument, drums, guitars, violin. At least you will be a head turner at the office if an opportunity arises to unleash your talent.
Go back to an old hobby of yours. Poem writing, song writing, writing a journal. Its the time to reflect and enjoy things that you have neglected because of your busy work sched.
2. You get to see places you’ve never seen before.
We all have places that we are dying to see all our life but sad to say, we are tied down to our busy scheds at the office.
Visit relatives and friends that you haven’t seen since who knows when
3. Never ending movie marathons
Huuuuuhhh!!! Rent a DVD of the movies that you’ve missed because you are too busy meeting completion dates of your boss.
4. Sleeping late, Waking up late
Nothing compares to late night conversations, late night news and late night sleep ( at last, payback time!!!!)
But then again, there are its CONS:
1. You have no money left to spare
You do have money but the question is for how long will that money last. I bet it wont last until you have your back pay with you. With all the tech stuff popping everywhere, its a curse not having any money.
2. You can’t ask for money
You definitely have the nerve of asking your mother for some cash (hehehehehe)
3.You cant hang-out with your friends whenever,wherever.
Because of one freakin reason THEY HAVE JOBS, and YOU DON’T.
Well, don’t let the pros outweigh the cons. You know what to do when your broke. Find a job!!!
Being a bum has its own pros and cons. Let’s check first the pros:
1. You get to learn something you’ve been wanting to learn all your life.
Learn to play any musical instrument, drums, guitars, violin. At least you will be a head turner at the office if an opportunity arises to unleash your talent.
Go back to an old hobby of yours. Poem writing, song writing, writing a journal. Its the time to reflect and enjoy things that you have neglected because of your busy work sched.
2. You get to see places you’ve never seen before.
We all have places that we are dying to see all our life but sad to say, we are tied down to our busy scheds at the office.
Visit relatives and friends that you haven’t seen since who knows when
3. Never ending movie marathons
Huuuuuhhh!!! Rent a DVD of the movies that you’ve missed because you are too busy meeting completion dates of your boss.
4. Sleeping late, Waking up late
Nothing compares to late night conversations, late night news and late night sleep ( at last, payback time!!!!)
But then again, there are its CONS:
1. You have no money left to spare
You do have money but the question is for how long will that money last. I bet it wont last until you have your back pay with you. With all the tech stuff popping everywhere, its a curse not having any money.
2. You can’t ask for money
You definitely have the nerve of asking your mother for some cash (hehehehehe)
3.You cant hang-out with your friends whenever,wherever.
Because of one freakin reason THEY HAVE JOBS, and YOU DON’T.
Well, don’t let the pros outweigh the cons. You know what to do when your broke. Find a job!!!
ode to my former colleageus
wassup?
I’ve been to my office (former office) this morning to fix some things. Went to my locker to get my personal things and not so personal things (things Ive collected from various people). Emptied my locker,signed the clearance form and left.
I didn’t have the chance to formally say goodbye to my former colleagues, though i did brought some pizza’s on my last day. Its kinda bittersweet. I did miss the days(or more appropriate nights) we were working together, laughing on silly things. I mean, I missed them.
I missed the 13 hour work day (practically everyday), the non stop client visits, the 2 hour meetings, everything.
But then again, time have changed. I suddenly lost the eagerness to work and be good in what I’m doing. Burnout to say the least. I needed some space and some time to think. I needed to be me again.
I salute the brave souls of my colleagues. I salute you for making both ends meet. I salute you for staying at the office way way far your office hour. I salute your eagerness to work and be good in what you are doing. I’m proud of you guys…
bye…
I’ve been to my office (former office) this morning to fix some things. Went to my locker to get my personal things and not so personal things (things Ive collected from various people). Emptied my locker,signed the clearance form and left.
I didn’t have the chance to formally say goodbye to my former colleagues, though i did brought some pizza’s on my last day. Its kinda bittersweet. I did miss the days(or more appropriate nights) we were working together, laughing on silly things. I mean, I missed them.
I missed the 13 hour work day (practically everyday), the non stop client visits, the 2 hour meetings, everything.
But then again, time have changed. I suddenly lost the eagerness to work and be good in what I’m doing. Burnout to say the least. I needed some space and some time to think. I needed to be me again.
I salute the brave souls of my colleagues. I salute you for making both ends meet. I salute you for staying at the office way way far your office hour. I salute your eagerness to work and be good in what you are doing. I’m proud of you guys…
bye…
hey
Hey,
I just dont feel writing on my blog. Yeah i love to write about stuff and everything but i just feel like doing/writing nowadays. Dunno why? Do you know? maybe you can help me.
Im unemployed, currently. I want to study. Study something else, like how to build a rocket from a carabao or how to make money without doing anything.
I like to go places I’ve never been. Like,uhmm, the city sewers, the poso negro, abu sayyaf lair to say the least. Or go to North Pole, the equator, the center of the earth. That will be a hair-raising experience. I just need someone to come with me and a lot of money.
I like to eat things I’ve never eaten before. Like, uhmmm, wait, like, fresh pirahnas, oxe brain, cottage cheese, fresh termites, snakes. I’ve never eaten them before. It’s not like you go to a supermarket and then you ask "Ale, Meron ba kayong anay? ung bagong huli lang?". If you know a supermarket, stall, please let me know.
I like to catch up with my reading. Ive been reading a book and its close to a year now. I haven’t finished the book yet. (I’m getting there…). It’s nice to go to a booksale and get good bargains like "Cooking Adobo for dummies" or "Preparing, preparing". They are nice books (though i haven’t seen/read one yet).
I like to watch television more. Like "Tanghalan ng Kampeon", "Iskul Bukol", "Palibhasa Lalake". I wish they sell DVD’s of these shows. I’ll surely buy 2 copies for my collection.
So many things to do, so little time.
I just dont feel writing on my blog. Yeah i love to write about stuff and everything but i just feel like doing/writing nowadays. Dunno why? Do you know? maybe you can help me.
Im unemployed, currently. I want to study. Study something else, like how to build a rocket from a carabao or how to make money without doing anything.
I like to go places I’ve never been. Like,uhmm, the city sewers, the poso negro, abu sayyaf lair to say the least. Or go to North Pole, the equator, the center of the earth. That will be a hair-raising experience. I just need someone to come with me and a lot of money.
I like to eat things I’ve never eaten before. Like, uhmmm, wait, like, fresh pirahnas, oxe brain, cottage cheese, fresh termites, snakes. I’ve never eaten them before. It’s not like you go to a supermarket and then you ask "Ale, Meron ba kayong anay? ung bagong huli lang?". If you know a supermarket, stall, please let me know.
I like to catch up with my reading. Ive been reading a book and its close to a year now. I haven’t finished the book yet. (I’m getting there…). It’s nice to go to a booksale and get good bargains like "Cooking Adobo for dummies" or "Preparing, preparing". They are nice books (though i haven’t seen/read one yet).
I like to watch television more. Like "Tanghalan ng Kampeon", "Iskul Bukol", "Palibhasa Lalake". I wish they sell DVD’s of these shows. I’ll surely buy 2 copies for my collection.
So many things to do, so little time.
I'm HOME
I’ve attended SFC ILC. Felt better, felt good inside. I’ve been attending International conferences for years and this ILC is different. It will be a cliché to tell that every conference has its own impact on us. Well for me, it’s super.
Being in the community for more than 10 years and hearing the usual inspiring talks kinda made me at ease. To say the least, I was on my comfort zone.
During ILC, I was shaken by GOD. I was in denial that I am serving Singles for Christ (yep, I was). I can’t seem to get over my YFC years. Spending 10 years in YFC is not that simple.
GOD made me realize that SFC is my new home. SFC will be my new home. It’s just as simple as maturing and moving on.
IM HOME
Being in the community for more than 10 years and hearing the usual inspiring talks kinda made me at ease. To say the least, I was on my comfort zone.
During ILC, I was shaken by GOD. I was in denial that I am serving Singles for Christ (yep, I was). I can’t seem to get over my YFC years. Spending 10 years in YFC is not that simple.
GOD made me realize that SFC is my new home. SFC will be my new home. It’s just as simple as maturing and moving on.
IM HOME
Different Holiday
He used to cook for us every Christmas eve, He would call me often and we would take turns in the barbeque stand. He would blow our vehicle’s horn during New Year’ Eve. It was our routine for the past 17 years, but for this year, I don’t think so………
My dad was a stroke victim, April 16, 2002 to be exact. He was depressed, he started questioning GOD, he stopped singing his favorite Christian songs, stopped reading the bible and one point stopped believing. I was in college then, He was with my Grandma at Tanauan. Every weekend after ROTC, I would go there, to be with him, to feed him, changing his clothes, clean him after he “poo-poo” on his diapers. It was tiring. Then I started to ask GOD: Why my dad? Why him? I know there are lot of bad people out there, why him? Sumisimba naman kami lagi ah?Nagdadasal lagi, Bakit siya pa?Bakit??
As the saying goes “When it rains, it pours”, it really poured on us, My dad was frequently hospitalized then, I have failed grades, my siblings was becoming aloof, my mom quit her job to devote her time for my dad, and I quit YFC.
It was the most miserable time of my life, before I gave up my service as a chapter head, I devoted one week to think, cry and seek some guidance. Finally, I did it, I quit! I felt a newfound freedom within me, I can go everywhere I want, not minding anyone else, sleeping soundly on weekends, until I hit rock bottom.
What am I doing with my LIFE??? I started to ask myself. I’m so stupid to waste my life this way, I can’t side this way, I won’t die this way!!!
I made a U-turn towards GOD again, I started to attend meetings, started giving talks and do things a normal YFC would do. In addition, GOD has mysterious ways of re-arranging our life, I transferred to my new school, I applied as a Student Assistant and got the job, my family was doing well again, and there is harmony between us, until GOD took him away from us.
It was October 2, 2004, when my dad died. He was 49 then. He should have been 50 last November 20, 2004, too bad he passed away already.
I will never see his smiles again, I will never hear voice again, his touch, his embrace, his home cooked meals, his jokes and everything.
He will never see me graduate from college; He will never see me with my girlfriend,
He will never have to cooked for us again this Christmas; He will never hear the words “Tatay, Sorry po”, “Tatay, Salamat po ng Marami at Mahal na Mahal kita”
My dad was a stroke victim, April 16, 2002 to be exact. He was depressed, he started questioning GOD, he stopped singing his favorite Christian songs, stopped reading the bible and one point stopped believing. I was in college then, He was with my Grandma at Tanauan. Every weekend after ROTC, I would go there, to be with him, to feed him, changing his clothes, clean him after he “poo-poo” on his diapers. It was tiring. Then I started to ask GOD: Why my dad? Why him? I know there are lot of bad people out there, why him? Sumisimba naman kami lagi ah?Nagdadasal lagi, Bakit siya pa?Bakit??
As the saying goes “When it rains, it pours”, it really poured on us, My dad was frequently hospitalized then, I have failed grades, my siblings was becoming aloof, my mom quit her job to devote her time for my dad, and I quit YFC.
It was the most miserable time of my life, before I gave up my service as a chapter head, I devoted one week to think, cry and seek some guidance. Finally, I did it, I quit! I felt a newfound freedom within me, I can go everywhere I want, not minding anyone else, sleeping soundly on weekends, until I hit rock bottom.
What am I doing with my LIFE??? I started to ask myself. I’m so stupid to waste my life this way, I can’t side this way, I won’t die this way!!!
I made a U-turn towards GOD again, I started to attend meetings, started giving talks and do things a normal YFC would do. In addition, GOD has mysterious ways of re-arranging our life, I transferred to my new school, I applied as a Student Assistant and got the job, my family was doing well again, and there is harmony between us, until GOD took him away from us.
It was October 2, 2004, when my dad died. He was 49 then. He should have been 50 last November 20, 2004, too bad he passed away already.
I will never see his smiles again, I will never hear voice again, his touch, his embrace, his home cooked meals, his jokes and everything.
He will never see me graduate from college; He will never see me with my girlfriend,
He will never have to cooked for us again this Christmas; He will never hear the words “Tatay, Sorry po”, “Tatay, Salamat po ng Marami at Mahal na Mahal kita”
arrrghhhhhh
wanna know what makes me shiver??(besides her of course)
A dentist! I’m so afraid of a dentist. just the mere presence of a dentist makes me wanna pee in my pants(if I’m wearing one)
It’s ironic because I have work as an Student Assistant before at College of Dentistry at Lyceum of Batangas. I’m practically surrounded by Dentist and wanna be dentist 6 days a week! (I’m pretty tough…)
But, as the old saying goes, visit your dentist every once in a while for your oral hygiene (no one wants a stink-breath)
I gathered all my strength,courage and determination to see our family dentist.The journey to his clinic seems to far yet so near..
I’m here, good thing I’m the next patient. I wont get so fidgety trying to clear my thoughts and save enough strength to face my old nemesis…
The dental chair seems to be so inviting, the irresistible head rest that seems to know how i felt everytime the pain becomes too unbearable, the dental "tools" that came to love me over the years.
Whiiiiinnnnngggg!!!! The sound I’ve longed to hear(Haha). Horizontal bars jumping in joy as they scanned and cleaned my teeth. (it’s quite annoying once you try to mimic the sound in your head,go ahead and try it!)
And the dreaded news…3 of my buddies are needs repair.. so I was like (what??!! I’m responsible in taking care of my buddies, why me? why!!!!)
My dentist told me that if i went there a month after, say hello to the tooth fairy…
And the show must go on, &*^%^%^ &^&#^ &^%** *$&#(*@^ *&^*&$#( (@*#&%@*!^% ^(#*&(#* (*^^%# #$^( (*(#*&$( ^*&@^#
It’s finished. My buddies are back to their old form. Ready to pounce at the sight of Food!!
Well, another adventure another day. ciao!!
A dentist! I’m so afraid of a dentist. just the mere presence of a dentist makes me wanna pee in my pants(if I’m wearing one)
It’s ironic because I have work as an Student Assistant before at College of Dentistry at Lyceum of Batangas. I’m practically surrounded by Dentist and wanna be dentist 6 days a week! (I’m pretty tough…)
But, as the old saying goes, visit your dentist every once in a while for your oral hygiene (no one wants a stink-breath)
I gathered all my strength,courage and determination to see our family dentist.The journey to his clinic seems to far yet so near..
I’m here, good thing I’m the next patient. I wont get so fidgety trying to clear my thoughts and save enough strength to face my old nemesis…
The dental chair seems to be so inviting, the irresistible head rest that seems to know how i felt everytime the pain becomes too unbearable, the dental "tools" that came to love me over the years.
Whiiiiinnnnngggg!!!! The sound I’ve longed to hear(Haha). Horizontal bars jumping in joy as they scanned and cleaned my teeth. (it’s quite annoying once you try to mimic the sound in your head,go ahead and try it!)
And the dreaded news…3 of my buddies are needs repair.. so I was like (what??!! I’m responsible in taking care of my buddies, why me? why!!!!)
My dentist told me that if i went there a month after, say hello to the tooth fairy…
And the show must go on, &*^%^%^ &^&#^ &^%** *$&#(*@^ *&^*&$#( (@*#&%@*!^% ^(#*&(#* (*^^%# #$^( (*(#*&$( ^*&@^#
It’s finished. My buddies are back to their old form. Ready to pounce at the sight of Food!!
Well, another adventure another day. ciao!!
whats wrong with me today
whats wrong with me today??
i know im sick,but im so feeling EMO today!
don’t know why
is it with the food that i ate this morning?(oatmeal with Milo and apple?) i dont really know.Or is it the medicine that i’m taking? (i don’t really know)
is this the effect of being mature and missing someone so much that sometimes it’s make you wanna cry and jump when you see her? i don’t really know…
or just the effect of lunar positions and the stars in the sky and the humidity on the wind that’s taking it’s toll on me?
or just the effect of having so much to do in so little time and so much distance between the two of you(huh?)
or the book that i’m reading for the past few weeks(dune:machine crusade,i don’t think so…hehehehe)
or is it just the plain truth that i miss her???(maybe)
miss you!!
*sigh*
i know im sick,but im so feeling EMO today!
don’t know why
is it with the food that i ate this morning?(oatmeal with Milo and apple?) i dont really know.Or is it the medicine that i’m taking? (i don’t really know)
is this the effect of being mature and missing someone so much that sometimes it’s make you wanna cry and jump when you see her? i don’t really know…
or just the effect of lunar positions and the stars in the sky and the humidity on the wind that’s taking it’s toll on me?
or just the effect of having so much to do in so little time and so much distance between the two of you(huh?)
or the book that i’m reading for the past few weeks(dune:machine crusade,i don’t think so…hehehehe)
or is it just the plain truth that i miss her???(maybe)
miss you!!
*sigh*
so sick!!
it’s has been two days since im inflicted with a rare disease common to our world(call center world). I knew that i will be inflicted with this kind of disease sooner or later. It was nerve wracking having a 38 ° C fever to drag your butt all the way to the doctor just to see and check what’s wrong with my body. I’m just waiting for my guard cells to annihilate and destroy every germ cell in my body for it function again normally(I hope).
It’s so depressing to be sick when you’re a workaholic person(sort of). Having nothing to do but wait, take medicines, wipe your body with alcohol to cool you down (it will be more exciting if someone will be wiping my body with alcohol), twisting and turning in your bed…the agony of waiting…!!!!!!!!
But, as the eternal law of the universe, everything happens for a reason. GOD has humbled me by making me sick, He wanted me to learn some lessons.
Lesson 1.
Take care of your Body!!
God has given you a body to care and nurture. Take good care of it. Even if takes all of your hard earned pay check just to make it healthy. Hey, no employers want a sick employee
Lesson 2
Time to assess your life
I mean, what do you really want to do with your life? You could be an employee all your life or take the strong leap towards something else.. Nobody knows!!
Lesson 3
Separate friends from FRIENDS!!!
It’s quite harsh but reality bites! You can asses your relationship towards a person in time of needs(in my case, soothing words to calm my restless, sick body)
Lesson 4
Check your Health Plan
You may be paying for a lavish health plan that you’ll probably enjoy after the age of 60. C’mon, many health plan has hidden agendas(sorry!!! Speaking from experience)
Lesson 5
Time to be intimate again with GOD
Maybe GOD wanted you to be sick in order for you to turn to Him and re-kindle your relationship with Him.
Anyways, ill be taking my medicine..
Ciao!!!
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It’s so depressing to be sick when you’re a workaholic person(sort of). Having nothing to do but wait, take medicines, wipe your body with alcohol to cool you down (it will be more exciting if someone will be wiping my body with alcohol), twisting and turning in your bed…the agony of waiting…!!!!!!!!
But, as the eternal law of the universe, everything happens for a reason. GOD has humbled me by making me sick, He wanted me to learn some lessons.
Lesson 1.
Take care of your Body!!
God has given you a body to care and nurture. Take good care of it. Even if takes all of your hard earned pay check just to make it healthy. Hey, no employers want a sick employee
Lesson 2
Time to assess your life
I mean, what do you really want to do with your life? You could be an employee all your life or take the strong leap towards something else.. Nobody knows!!
Lesson 3
Separate friends from FRIENDS!!!
It’s quite harsh but reality bites! You can asses your relationship towards a person in time of needs(in my case, soothing words to calm my restless, sick body)
Lesson 4
Check your Health Plan
You may be paying for a lavish health plan that you’ll probably enjoy after the age of 60. C’mon, many health plan has hidden agendas(sorry!!! Speaking from experience)
Lesson 5
Time to be intimate again with GOD
Maybe GOD wanted you to be sick in order for you to turn to Him and re-kindle your relationship with Him.
Anyways, ill be taking my medicine..
Ciao!!!
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IPIS-graceful exit
“Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.” –Yoda, Star Wars
Letting go of something you love has never been easy. Leaving the community that has been with you practically all your life is painful. Parting with the group that has taught you what it really means to serve and to love is heartbreaking…
I never thought that I could be this sad. (Who said goodbyes are blissful, anyway?) 2006 has been the most challenging year YFC Batangas has ever experienced (yet). With the leaving of some of the province’s strongest leaders for a higher form of service, and with the sudden “eviction” of our dearly loved Provincial Couple Coordinators, PCG Batangas was left on its own. Pretty ironic, for these happened before the province’s major activities took place. There was actually not enough time for mourning, because, as cliché as this may sound, the show must go on. With the upcoming BAYCON and RYC, PCG Batangas has to stand up on its own two feet this time and finish what has been started. The group has to be strong for the people that God has entrusted to its care. And with God’s grace, YFC Batangas was able to surpass all the trials that came its way, emerging victorious, undeterred, and with greater faith than ever.
Now that 2007 is here, YFC Batangas is yet facing another challenge: it is starting all over. From the full time pastoral worker to the provincial youth heads, from the provincial core group to the couple coordinators, everything (or everyone) is new. And now that we, the former Provincial Core Group of Batangas (now popularly known as the IPIS), have stepped down from service, we are filled with ambivalent emotions: relieved because the pressure of leading the whole YFC Batangas to victory is now off our shoulders, but poignant because we are leaving the service that we have loved so much. I’m gonna miss the ear-piercing laughters, the tear-jerking sharings, the annoying trippings, the humiliating hiritans, the love teams and the love triangles, the arguments over silly things, the sleepless nights, the nerve-racking plannings, the extremely stressful activities and the fellowships after, the walkathon from the Lipa City Youth and Cultural Center to the bus stop in the middle of the night, the SHOUTs, our coordinators and their kakulitans, the recollections, the piktyur-piktyurans, the pag-iisaw, the okrayans, the “terms of endearment,” the worships, and of course, the moments in conferences wherein we can’t do anything but to cry so as to ease our frustrations.
I just can’t believe that the moment we’ve been dreading has finally arrived: it’s now time to leave. It’s funny how we used to talk about this before, yet not really able to picture ourselves leaving. We would always say to each other, “Di ko ma-imagine ang sarili ko na wala sa YFC.” I can’t imagine leaving the community (and the group) that has made such a great impact on my life. My world practically revolved around it. If only I could turn back time, I would. But then, I can’t.
It’s now time for the IPIS to step down in order to give way for other leaders. To the new Provincial Core Group of Batangas, I salute you all, for having the courage to accept God’s calling to serve our province. Life as a PCG member has never been, and never will be, easy — and I’m talking from experience here. There would be a lot of struggles, for being part of the core group entails a lot of sacrifices and decisions that can, sometimes, even break your hearts. But I can assure you that you’ve made the right choice. For my being a PCG member has become the highlight of my YFC life. Everything that I have learned from being a YFC/PCG, I’m gonna bring with me for the rest of my life. I’m wishing all of you luck. Make the most of the time that God has given you to glorify Him through this service. As for us, the IPISes, it’s time to move on, because God has set out a new course for us to take on… May God be praised! c:
*Thanks Maanne Miranda for this one
Letting go of something you love has never been easy. Leaving the community that has been with you practically all your life is painful. Parting with the group that has taught you what it really means to serve and to love is heartbreaking…
I never thought that I could be this sad. (Who said goodbyes are blissful, anyway?) 2006 has been the most challenging year YFC Batangas has ever experienced (yet). With the leaving of some of the province’s strongest leaders for a higher form of service, and with the sudden “eviction” of our dearly loved Provincial Couple Coordinators, PCG Batangas was left on its own. Pretty ironic, for these happened before the province’s major activities took place. There was actually not enough time for mourning, because, as cliché as this may sound, the show must go on. With the upcoming BAYCON and RYC, PCG Batangas has to stand up on its own two feet this time and finish what has been started. The group has to be strong for the people that God has entrusted to its care. And with God’s grace, YFC Batangas was able to surpass all the trials that came its way, emerging victorious, undeterred, and with greater faith than ever.
Now that 2007 is here, YFC Batangas is yet facing another challenge: it is starting all over. From the full time pastoral worker to the provincial youth heads, from the provincial core group to the couple coordinators, everything (or everyone) is new. And now that we, the former Provincial Core Group of Batangas (now popularly known as the IPIS), have stepped down from service, we are filled with ambivalent emotions: relieved because the pressure of leading the whole YFC Batangas to victory is now off our shoulders, but poignant because we are leaving the service that we have loved so much. I’m gonna miss the ear-piercing laughters, the tear-jerking sharings, the annoying trippings, the humiliating hiritans, the love teams and the love triangles, the arguments over silly things, the sleepless nights, the nerve-racking plannings, the extremely stressful activities and the fellowships after, the walkathon from the Lipa City Youth and Cultural Center to the bus stop in the middle of the night, the SHOUTs, our coordinators and their kakulitans, the recollections, the piktyur-piktyurans, the pag-iisaw, the okrayans, the “terms of endearment,” the worships, and of course, the moments in conferences wherein we can’t do anything but to cry so as to ease our frustrations.
I just can’t believe that the moment we’ve been dreading has finally arrived: it’s now time to leave. It’s funny how we used to talk about this before, yet not really able to picture ourselves leaving. We would always say to each other, “Di ko ma-imagine ang sarili ko na wala sa YFC.” I can’t imagine leaving the community (and the group) that has made such a great impact on my life. My world practically revolved around it. If only I could turn back time, I would. But then, I can’t.
It’s now time for the IPIS to step down in order to give way for other leaders. To the new Provincial Core Group of Batangas, I salute you all, for having the courage to accept God’s calling to serve our province. Life as a PCG member has never been, and never will be, easy — and I’m talking from experience here. There would be a lot of struggles, for being part of the core group entails a lot of sacrifices and decisions that can, sometimes, even break your hearts. But I can assure you that you’ve made the right choice. For my being a PCG member has become the highlight of my YFC life. Everything that I have learned from being a YFC/PCG, I’m gonna bring with me for the rest of my life. I’m wishing all of you luck. Make the most of the time that God has given you to glorify Him through this service. As for us, the IPISes, it’s time to move on, because God has set out a new course for us to take on… May God be praised! c:
*Thanks Maanne Miranda for this one
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my second blog site(actually my third), created a blog site before, it still active akosiadrian.blogspot.com. Can't remember the username and password. Google won't allow me to log in again, so I guess creating a new blog will be much better.
Hmmmmm...
What to expect?
1. Many things
2. New post (I'll try to make this blog similar to my friendster blog -http://akosiadrian.blog.friendster.com/)
3. Short Stories
4. Reviews
5. Life
6. Many more
enjoy!!
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